Creativeness

I have my website online. www.bronsaccessories.com
Check it out when you have a chance and let your friends know about it. I am still working on a couple of things, but they should be worked out this week. I didn't do it all myself, I had some help from my boyfriends mate Dan. He is good with this sort of thing. I am really proud of my website. I just hope something comes of it and I can make some money. It is great to finally be using my creative side. Unfortunately jobs aren't going so well. After I quit my job I have been doing some temp work, not as much as I was hoping I would which really sucks so money is really tight at the moment. I am looking at other things and am focusing on part time jobs. I still cook BBQ's at Daytona, and I have applied for some part time work at a couple of pubs as a waitress, bar staff. We will see what happens. I just need to get some things up and running. So I am a bit stressed at the moment, but happier than when I was doing a job I didn't enjoy.

Fear

I fear that I have lost my way. I fear that I will never find who I am, that I will never find my place in this world. I fear that I will run out of money before I can figure myself out. I fear that I will end up alone.
Fear is so strong and I often find it hard to overcome fear, though I usually do. This time I worry that it may not be so easy. I have no desire to lose what I have.
Watching Elizabeth the first reign as Queen of England makes me want to succeed in whatever it is that I do. She was so beautiful and so powerful. She did not do as she was told. She was independent and did what she needed to do. Her spirit was strong.

8 miles

Today I walked 8 miles to Hampton Court Palace and back again. All of my joints hurt, but I feel like I have accomplished something.
It was a really nice walk along the Thames. When I got to Hampton Court I stopped for fish and chips and a beer.

travelling the countryside

Following Dean around through the karting season is really great. Not only do I get to see a lot of the English countryside but I also get to practice my sketching and photography because these tracks are usually all hidden away in the bush.
This weekend I went to Buckmore park. I managed to get a few good pictures of Dean racing, well once I get them developed I will be able to tell, so hopefully they turned out well.
To give an update on the job thing, I have left my job and am temping. It is fun because I get to do different things. Though last week I wroked at a debt collectors, and not such a good place. Everyone was really nice though. I am still cooking bbq's at Daytona and I am creating a website to sell the bags and accessories that I make, so hopefully all these little bits will help me.

Untitled

I am not really sure how to title this post, so I'm not.
I have started an Interior Design course recently. I am really enjoying it and can't wait to get further in. I finally have the chance to be creative.
My biggest problem is finding a job. The job that I have at the moment is not fulfiling me at all and I need to change. The hardest thing is figuring out what to do.
I have been applying for different things. I don't want to do something just for the sake of having a job. I know it is said all the time but life is too short and I want to enjoy my life.
Crazy ramblings, but that said, feel better.

Snow

It snowed all day today. It was brillant. I had lots of fun walking around Walton in the snow taking lots of pictures. My poor car was completely covered in snow and was very cold!
But it was very cool.

Hello World

Its been awhile and I have been told that I don't write here enough so people can't keep up with what I am doing over here in the UK.
Life is very good for me. I have a job that is having its ups and downs but I think I might be getting somewhere which is great. I am an administration manager, which is a little boring, but hopefully things will pick up soon.
I have bought a car recently, a little ford fiesta. It is a great little car and cheap to run which is great. I have missed driving and it is good to finally be back driving again.
Last week I started a new course. I am doing a Diploma in Interior Design and Decoration. I am doing it through a college in London. I am enjoying being able to use my creative side for my course and not just a hobby. So taking pictures and drawing can be done and not me just procastinating. Plus I have to visit historical places, such as Palaces. Very cool.
Life is pretty good. But I am just living as it comes.