Cognitive Behaviour Therapy

Tomorrow I am being assessed by the NHS Primary Care Trust. There is a section that focuses on mental health.
Hopefully this will help me and the way that I think. I can be quite negative, mostly to myself. The saying 'You are your own worst enemy' can be very true, especially for someone who like me can easily think the worst of everything. Things can get really hard for me and this is the next step in getting better and being able to come off the drugs completely one day. Not thinking too far ahead yet, I still have a very long way to go.
Some days are better than others, generally more better days.
I had the week off last week from work. It was nice but I pretty much spent the whole time sleeping. One of the joyous symptoms of depression along with some memory loss. Not fun when I forget things at work. Such little things and people don't realise that these 'symptoms' are misdiagnosed. I never associated all the things (I learnt some of them in a seminary I attended last week) with me, but there you go.
I can only go up and that is where I plan on going.

Check up

Went to the doctors yesterday for a check up. Doing ok, though not as well as I had hoped. The doctor has increased my dosage and given me some sleeping tablets. The last couple of months I have not been sleeping well and spend the whole day yawning and wishing I was back in bed. I have to say I have a much deeper sleep, but it has only been one night and I am not feeling better rested yet.
I was disappointed that I had to my doseage increased, but my doctor is really positive and wants me to focus on just getting better to start with and then look at long term solutions. He thinks I am trying to do much all at once to get better when I should be taking one step at a time. I guess that is just the way I am. But I am learning to slow down a bit and take things one step at a time.
This time it feels like I have to work harder. But this time I know it is about me. I am not getting better because I want to be better for someone else, I want to get better for me.