What do I believe in?

I grew up in a very christian household, my grandfather was a minister in the church. I was baptised and confirmed in the Uniting. My whole life revolved around the church. I made a lot of friends and I did a lot.
As I got older I became more disillusioned by the whole idea of church. It may have been the church that I was attending, I am not sure.
It wasn't until I left the church for a couple of years to come back and to have been forgotten. There were so many new people and I no longer felt welcome in a place that I thought of as a retreat, a place of real spirituality.
I lost hope in the church and the idea of being told what and how I should believe it.
Since being in the UK I have learnt a great deal about myself and what I can achieve. I have an amazing inner strength and power that guides me. When I connect to that power and the power within everyone that I feel like I belong. Everyone and everything is connected. When something happens in one place it affects another. When we are connected we are at our strongest.
I am learning to connect with the world as a whole not just through some God that will one day judge me for everything that I have ever done. I connect with Love.
That is what I believe in!

Bron's Accessories

My website www.bronsaccessories.com is finally up and running.
I am so excited, happy and relieved that is up and working. This site has been almost a year in the making and finishing it is a real accomplishment for me. I wasn't sure if I would ever finish it. Now I am in the process of advertising it. Printing leaflets and posting them. Then hoping that people will buy the things I have made. So I am a little nervous about it, but who knows where this might go. Yay!

Success Intelligence and being happy!

Things are pretty good. I am not feeling so homesick now which is good so am planning on staying for maybe a couple more years.
I want to use this year to grow. I have so much growth yet to do. I am studying the Enneagram (a personality typing based in spiritual growth) which all of us at work are working through though everyone else at work has been doing it a lot longer than me. Sometimes it feels I am so far behind everyone, but I only came to this 6 months ago, they have been studying this for years. But I am finding it an amazing way to grow.
I also have a plan to go to Kenya this year an do some volunteer work in an orphange. I don't want to puch myself too much because I can get overwhelmed really easily. I am also doing my CBT as well. So I continue on my journey to see where I am headed.
My boss Robert Holden has just release his new website www.robertholden.org It is a really great site and gives a fantastic introduction to him and his work. It is a great time to be where I am and I would like to be here for as long as I can.

Walkabout

I am feeling unsettled at the moment. I don't know whether that means that it is time for me to go back to Australia or whether I move somewhere new.
This year feels like it should be a new year full of change and going beyond the comfort zone. But I just feel a little lost. This year I have so many choices with my visa coming to an end and I just don't know what to do.
I am trying to find some guidance but it just doesn't seem to come and I am not sure what to do. Everyone tells me to do what feels right, but I don't know what feels right. I just feel like giving everything up and going on a walkabout to figure out what to do.
I love my job and helping people and I am going on a real journey with them. But I am feeling a little homesick and miss everyone back home. It is so hard to find someone to share my life with. I have been on lots of dates but nothing. Though even going home may not be any better.
If I do go home I have to start my life all over again. I don't know if I want to do that again.
That would be the same if I went some where else. I just don't know where and do what.
I am feeling confused and just so unsure of where to go and what to do. I do know that my parents will tell me to come home.

Christmas

I had a pretty good Christmas. I spent Christmas and Boxing Day with my flatmates family. It was nice to spend Christmas with a child. My flatmate has a 5 year old niece. She was so excited and ripping into the presents. It made Christmas a lot more fun. I ended up with quite a few little bits and pieces which was pretty cool. But I ate way too much, and lots of Turkey.
Yesterday I rode to Hampton Court Palace and back again. It was a beautiful day riding along the river. But I am a little sore today. Well worth it.
Now I am looking forward to the new year. I am spending New Years eve at a friends place and making our own pizzas which should be quite fun and then watch the fireworks on the tv.